Winter Blues

I’m feeling very very fed up today. I decided to leap onto the scales this morning, just to have a look, and got the shock of my life!  I am now officially heavier than I have ever been throughout my entire life. I am totally shocked and a very ashamed that I’ve let myself come to this. 😦 I can feel depression setting in all ready and the worst thing is, no-one will even notice. I’ve got very good at hiding my unhappiness, maybe too good.

So today I had my porridge for breakfast, made with skimmed milk. Lunch today consists of fruit and yogurts and supper will be a low fat dish cooked by my husband, probably with chicken. My choice beverage for the day is water, and only water.  I just have to kick this addiction to food, mostly sugar I think. It’s not that easy though, is it? It never is..

16 years ago I managed to give up smoking after nearly 20 years of having the habit, so surely I can overcome this one too? Hmmmmm we’ll see I guess

First blog post

Today I woke up and thought ‘So is this it now, ’til the end? This is my life’ Sigh! Do others in their fifties feel that the best years have gone, and they missed them somehow? I feel frumpy, fat and have no energy at all. There’s too much to do each day and not enough time to do it, and on top of that, I’m kind of lonely.’

So I decided to write an online journal of my life, the day to day trivialities that annoy me, the good, the bad and the ugliness that is somehow present.  I want to share it with you, as if somehow the anonimity of the good old internet are the ears of a long time loving friend.

Share with me, and comment and chat if you like. I’d love to hear from people all over this big beautiful world, learn more about your culture, share some of mine with you. Have lots of laughter, a few tears perhaps but just enjoy the exchange.

So, Welcome